This past weekend I attended the wedding of my dear friends’ daughter. The wedding and venue was beautiful. I was excited to attend and I splurged on a new dress and shoes. I didn’t count on the slow dances raising so many emotions. It is hard to watch all of the loving couples on the dance floor when I was missing my own love.
Although, I have to admit it was a bit ironic because in 30+ years of knowing Gary we never danced together. For someone who was drummer with a profound sense of music, he was too self conscious to dance! Thankfully it was a warm night and I was able to maintain my composure by talking a short walk outside and rejoicing in the stars.
I don’t begrudge anyone their love. Slow dances, tender moments, thoughtful glances, and love must continue in this world. I’m sure it is hard for any single person to sit on the sidelines during a slow dance. I guess I didn’t expect it to hit me so hard. I have a new appreciation of being single.
Nor do I regret experiencing the love shared at the wedding. I am so thankful that my friends included me. I’m not writing this to make anyone feel bad. Please, continue dancing, hugging, loving , and living like no one is watching! Life is what happens and we adjust and move on. Sometimes emotions are stronger and harder but each new experience is a step forward.
Blatantly Life 